Its like god is giving me a sign/reminder on how completely single I am. My dash is filled with the most adorable pictures ever, followed with phrases from heart broken songs. I just finished watching One Tree Hill which is obviously composed of the most heavy emotional heart breaking story lines throughout the whole series. I turn to my Facebook for awkward posts and funny likes..but I’am then greeted with the most depressing trend of posts. Its like more then usual amount of people just deactivated, and changed there relationship status. Better yet I walked into my sisters room and saw a tear seep through the corner of her eye and trickle down her face whilst listening to Adele’s lyrics. She turned to me and said ‘I said my goodbye’ and forced a gay fake smile like she always does. It’s just a depressing night. Jesus christ!
There is a motherfucking bird sat right outside my window. It’s not one of three that are singing sweet songs telling me not to worry, it’s just but one bird. Just ONE sat chirping all night ALL night. Time check my friends it’s 3am in the morning. I am thirsty, but I’m not going to die like Emily Rose.
I feel like a single mother who’s children have all fled from the nest. Nearly all my close friends are currently overseas, and trying to make Skype dates is the biggest mission (due to time differences of course). Netherlands, Russia, England, America and one who is slutting all over Europe. Hearing all there stories and adventures makes me so jealous. However BIGGEST YAY! ELOISE DUGGER is returning back to me from mexico on Wednesday :) :)
Whether your waiting for your train to arrive, that person to phone, to finish that exam, go on your first date or even for your drug dealer to arrive. Life is without a doubt the biggest waiting game. I’m waiting for something bad to happen so that something good can follow (or so they say). I’m waiting for Uni to finally start next month, waiting to be 18 the month after that so my social life can resume properly. Waiting for my eBay purchase to arrive at my door step, waiting to see what ACTUALLY happens on December 21’st 2012 and how many theory’s get completely shutdown, and now currently waiting for my stupid toast to be well…toasted. (Yes time to time I do enjoy having breakfast, for dinner).
So I guess happy waiting, because in the end we’re all waiting for something to happen whether its good or bad, big or small, cause in the end our biggest wait is waiting for our lives to come to that end. I guess thats why its the time between the waiting and greeting the arrival of everything is what makes it so special. To make the most of every surprise, miracle and shit thing that happens to you. Thats why if by the wildest chance I was ever greeted with some magical time traveling machine, curiosity would tingle my mind but I wouldn’t venture on it. I like not knowing the unknown I guess thats the magic of it all. So theres my weekly rant..happy waiting everyone…whatever it is you’re waiting for.
I may have completely killed this song, this week alone.
'If I could only find a note to make you understand, I’d sing it softly in your ears and grab you by the hand, keep me stuck inside your head like your favorite tune and know my heart’s a stereo that only plays for you.'